Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Trevor's Garden


We have a piece of land behind my studio that goes almost to the levee. Some years ago a friend built large planter boxes to grow flowers for drying. They have long been unplanted, and we have only attempted from time to time to keep the growth of weeds under some control .

Our friends have often heard us talk about Trevor, our "tenant" who lives in a fenced part of our yard that borders this land. He is a Vietnam vet who has made his home in our yard for almost 20 years. We have become friends and he and I have occasional conversations which tend to be short as he quickly becomes delusional. I have grown fond of him.
Over the years I learned that he had been very involved in the Homeless Garden Project; he chose the job of tending the compost because he could be alone and near all of the gardening books which he loved to read. The Project was forced to relocate and he refused to go to the new site.

Two years ago we planted our onion seeds from Italy in one of the boxes. Trevor added some other onions, some tomatoes, bell peppers, and numerous avocados that he sprouted. A white rose bush appeared and other flowers followed. I watered when I was here, but he also would fill a large water bottle repeatedly in the river and carry it up to his plants.

Last year we provided him with water and a hose. And his garden grew! He has collected beautiful pieces of driftwood to cradle many of his new plants and is now making sculptures with logs and sticks. He only pulls weeds when he needs the piece of earth it occupies. He puts plants outside of the boxes and hides them under others. The result is a beautiful chaos with graceful shapes rising above the greenery. It is color- full with flowers. When I went out to take photos he was in his "house"and began to sing but did not come out.

His space is about six feet by fifteen feet and under a very large pine tree. I haven't been inside for a long time since we closed off the access to our yard, but he has decorated it with shelves and books, plants and beautiful pieces of wood. He constructed a low roof with a tarp. He loves a little gray neighborhood cat that he named October Mouse. He said she sleeps under his beard. He once showed me the scratches on his fence that he watched a racoon make as it climbed. He loves the crows that gather in the tree. He would throw tennis balls that he found into our yard for our dog, Fred. He gives me little gifts from time to time- most recently a blooming proteus plant- at other times a jar of organic honey and a new Pizza My Heart t-shirt. He tried often to give me an avocado to plant. When I said that we had no room for an avocado tree and what could I do with it. He answered, "I don't know. Talk to it!"

He seems to like his life and, even though he does have money, would not choose four walls and a roof. At times, though, paranoia consumes him and he suffers deeply. Often we can hear him ranting and angry. He is an interesting, complex and terribly scarred man.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Still working it out

I wanted to include the newest woman in my studio with "Faces" below, but was not successful. the mechanics of blogging sometimes eludes me.
I expect to work it out eventually.

Faces

4:30 am I woke with this line in my head- "and faces like flowers float out of the ground".
Before falling asleep the night before, I was visited by the faces that I often see behind my closed eyes while still awake. I welcome this experience when it comes and wish they would stay longer. I don't remember when it began- I guess about 15 years ago. The first to come were the elders, old men with white beards whose faces would come very close and look directly at me. Then they would slowly recede and disappear. "No, come back. Stay.", my mind would call out to them. I wanted them to speak to me. They never did. They were all strangers, but one time I thought I saw the face of my dead brother, Charlie.
After some years I saw the first women. I remember that one of them reached out to touch my face but left before doing so. I did a painting of this. Recently groups have been arriving and seem to be milling about; they make less eye contact with me but seem to be involved with each other. Last night the visitors were children. They had very intense gazes and strong faces.
Once I read a novel in which a woman said- "you know the faces that sometimes come to you before you fall asleep...". that was the first time I heard of another who knew of this. I don't remember the title or the author and I wish I did so I could contact her.
My studio is filled with faces.

After poring over my book of e.e. cummings poetry, I found the line that I woke with.
It begins-
When faces like flowers float out of the ground
And breathing is wishing and wishing is having-
But keeping is downward and doubting and never
-it’s april (yes april;my darling) it’s spring!

And the last verse-
When more than was lost has been found has been found
And having is giving and giving is living-
But keeping is darkness and winter and cringing
-it’s spring (all our night becomes day)o, it’s spring!
All the pretty birds dive to the heart of the sky
All the little fish climb through the mind of the sea
(all the mountains are dancing;are dancing)

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Julia Ward Howe's Mother's Day Proclamation- 1870

Julia Ward Howe's Mother's Day Proclamation - 1870

Arise then ... women of this day! Arise, all women who have hearts!
Whether your baptism be of water or of tears!

Say firmly:
"We will not have questions answered by irrelevant agencies,
Our husbands will not come to us, reeking with carnage,
For caresses and applause.
Our sons shall not be taken from us to unlearn
All that we have been able to teach them of charity, mercy and patience.
We, the women of one country,
Will be too tender of those of another country
To allow our sons to be trained to injure theirs."

From the bosom of a devastated Earth a voice goes up with
Our own. It says: "Disarm! Disarm!
The sword of murder is not the balance of justice."
Blood does not wipe out dishonor,
Nor violence indicate possession.
As men have often forsaken the plough and the anvil
At the summons of war,
Let women now leave all that may be left of home
For a great and earnest day of counsel.
Let them meet first, as women, to bewail and commemorate the dead.
Let them solemnly take counsel with each other as to the means
Whereby the great human family can live in peace ...
Each bearing after his own time the sacred impress, not of Caesar,
But of God -
In the name of womanhood and humanity, I earnestly ask
That a general congress of women without limit of nationality,
May be appointed and held at someplace deemed most convenient
And the earliest period consistent with its objects,
To promote the alliance of the different nationalities,
The amicable settlement of international questions,
The great and general interests of peace.